same old me bring the boring out of me....

BIDADARI..old songs by LELA

Bidadari
Lela
Kenangan silam aku dan dirimu
Berdua sesama bermadu
Saling berjanji sehidup semati
Hakikat di dunia ini

Segala yang dikata
Harus di kota
Ibarat adam dan juga hawa
Alangkah indah
Sewaktu bercinta
Tiada senjata
Yang dapat menghalang kita

Kau umpama bidadari
Suci bagai embun pagi
Tapi aku belum pasti
Apakah cintamu itu suci

Kau hadir membawa erti
Penawar di kala sepi
Sehangat dian yang menyinari
Bersama cintamu abadi

SUDAH SAMPAI SINI

bermusim silih berganti buat mentari

pejam celik tak terasa aku

sudah sampai sini sudah sampai sini

bergerak berlagu hanyalah seketika

tinggal aku dalam kerugian dia pasti pergi

dia terus pergi

selagi terikat satu janji setia

selagi itu tercatit kisah semua

disana kepastian akan menanti kita
disitu tanda tanya

disitu haluannya
disitu tanda tanya

disitu haluannya
antara kau aku

ada satu rahsiapasti terbongkar

di tali yang terselirat

tersenyum dan menangis

satu antara dua
selagi terikat satu janji setia

selagi itu tercatit kisah semua

disana kepastian akan menanti kita
bermusim silih berganti buat mentari

pejam celik tak terasa aku
sudah sampai sini

sudah sampai sini

game over !!!

Tiada Lagi by Amy Search

Sia sia sudah

Kita jalin cinta

Bila hati selalu berbeda
Sampai kapan lagi

Aku harus menahan

Rasa kecewa di dalam dada
Seandainya kita masih bersatu

Tak mungkinkan menyatu

Walau masih ada sisa cinta

Biarkan saja berakhir sampai

Di sini
Tiada lagi yang ku harapkan

Tiada lagi yang ku impikan

Biar aku sendiri tanpa diri mu
Tiada lagi kata cintamu

Takkan lagi ku bersama mu

Biar ku simpan semua

Kenangan ku bersamamu

Ku Cari Damai Di Hati

Artis : gingerbread

Lagu : Ku Cari Damai Di Hati

mengapa kau tergamak sungguh,

memperdaya harapan ini..

tunas kasih yang semairacun berbisa yang kau sirami

beginikah balasan cinta

manis kata dibibir saja

lembut lidah mengukir janji

segunung mimpi berkecai kini...

sesalan tidak terucap bila kau berubah sikapku sedar siapa diriku

kau buat tempat berteduh

semoga kau bahagia disamping kekasih baru

andainya engkau kecewa

janganlah kau cari aku

biar saja aku sendiriyang mencari damai dihati

airmata basah dipipi tak mungkin dapat membasuh luka

love this song by Oasis

It's Good To Be Free by Oasis

Head like a rock spinning round and round
I found it in a hole sitting upside down
You point the finger at me but I don't believe
Paint me a wish on a velvet sky
You demand the answers but I don't know why in my mind
There is no time But the little things they make me so happy
All I want to do is live by the sea
Little things they make me so happy
But it's good it's good it's good to be free So what would you say if I said to you
It's not in what you say it's in what you do
You point the finger at me but I don't believe
Bring it on home to where we foundMy head like a rock sitting upside down
In my mind there is no time But the little things they make me so happy
All I want to do is live by the sea
Little things they make me so happy
But it's good it's good it's good to be free

curahan rasa

XPDC - Curahan Rasa
Tika begini
Aku juga mengerti
Perasaanku terganggu
Malam penuh dengan bintang
Indah khabar rupamu
Menawan setiap waktu
Apa lagi yang dinantikan
Bukan bertepuk sebelah tangan
Cintaku tidak
Aku pastikan sampai tujuan
Berarak mendung bintang
Berlagu sepi semalam
Aku hanya seorang insan
Tak mampu keajaiban
Jika perlu engkau tinggalkan
Demi relakan kemanusiaan
Sejernih kasih Selembut sinar mutiara
Belaian kau yang lembut
Tak dapat aku melupakan
Sentuhan kasih Irama merdu dalam dakapan
Suara yang membisik
Bagai gelora menghempas pantai…
Sejernih kasih Selembut sinar mutiara
Belaian kau yang lembut
Tak dapat aku melupakan
Sentuhan kasih Irama merdu dalam dakapan
Suara yang membisik
Bagai gelora menghempas pantai…
Aku hanya seorang insanTak mampu keajaiban
Jika perlu engkau tinggalkan
Demi relakan kemanusiaan

i still don't believe where i am rite now??!!

i still don't believe where i am rite now, and what i am doing too...

it just too good to be true...

it just my luck and i'm going to make sure i can finish it....

just one more steps...

ayob si kaki pancing ikan

Ayob si kaki pancing

Aku ada seorang kawan, namanya Ayob, di suka memancing. Cakap ja kat mana ada lubok ikan, pasti dia akan pergi. tidak kira la malam ka siang ka pasti dia akan pergi punya. kalau lopak air kat tengah jalan ada makhluk bentuk macam ikan, pun dia akan pergi memancing. Si Ayob ni muda dari aku, kira aku ni senior la dari dia.
Nak dipanjangkan cerita, aku dengan ramahnya pergi la sembang sembang dengan Ayob. Setelah sekian lama menyembang dengan Ayob, dia pulak tanya aku
“hang ada awek tak?” dengan malu tersipu sipu ala ala macho aku menjawab “ huh ada”
Dia kemudian tanya lagi “awek hang orang mana?” aku pun menjawab sambil mengaru garu kepala “ orang aloq staq, awatnya?” aku malas nak go detail sangat awek aku tinggal kat mana.sekadar itu ja aku jawap. Kemudian si Ayob ni dengan pantas menjawap serta mukanya penuh keyakinan “budak pompuan aloq staq bukan bleh percaya sangat!!!”
Aku pun tersenyum dan menbalas kembali apakah rasionalnya kata katanya itu “hang kata macam tu sebab hang dah kena tipu dengan ex awek hang.. tak boleh la hang kata semua budak pompuan aloq staq tak bleh pakai…” lantas wajah awek aku terlintas di kepala hotak aku…aku percaya yang dia bukan macam ex awek si Ayob ni.. huh kerana nila setitik rosak susu satu belangga..setelah aku menerangkan dengan lebih detail kepada ayob tentang peribahasa tersebut..ayob pun diam tanpa seribu bahasa...diam tanda protest atau diam tandanya setuju??
awek ku......
Aku yakin dia tak akan mempermainkan kepercayaan aku dan cinta aku walaupun aku berada di sini dan dia ada di sana..
Aku amat berharap agar dia juga mencintai aku seperti aku mencintai dia…
Awek aku bukan insan yang di maksudkan oleh Ayob. Aku pasti dan yakin awek aku akan membuktikan statement si Ayob itu salah belaka..bukan semua perempuan tu sama. Dan bukan semua lelaki itu sama… makhluk tuhan spesis manusia adalah berbeza beza sikap dan perangai.
Aku berharap dia dapat menantiku…dan aku juga menanti dirinya..dia adalah milik aku dan aku adalah milik dia..
Ayob oh Ayob, sebab hang la aku makin sayangkan awek aku…hehehe thank you Ayob..

why doesn't anybody like me?

no use for a name

"Why Doesn't Anybody Like Me?"

Maybe you don't understand it, what keeps them awake at night

What goes through their little minds when you turn off the light?

Always having to say sorry tears are stained on the pillow

Like the light of the moon they can't be one

Can't exist without the son

Let's think clearly for a while

Can he shine without a smile?

Why am I alone with no one to be found?

Looks like they know what's best for me

Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand?

Guess I'll have to crawl inside and I don't know why

I'm sitting by myself, when the problem isn't mine

Been around the block a few times, been beat up by all his friends

Learning life is like a maze that never seems to end

Like an open book, blank pages left for only him to write

Life is short this chapter takes so long

Can't tell the right from the wrong

Let's think clearly for a while
Can he shine without a smile?

Why am I alone with no one to be found?
Looks like they know what's best for me
Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand?
Guess I'll have to crawl inside and I don't know why
I'm sitting by myself, when the problem isn't mine

Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand

Why my friends and family left me

At twenty six years old he won't be taught a meaning to this mess

He'll just have to take a guess, and make his own plan

And we'll never see the child that was forced to be a man

COUPLE

i can't sleep.. although i am bloody tired

i want to sleep..i am very tired....but inside my head there is like a new year party, with fireworks exploding for non stop.....

i tried to close my eyes..but it won't work..trying to count till 100,but i failed to count coz .. i lost count...

my brain just can't stop working...couldn't chill out, could not take it lightly

too much worying i guess...

thinking of now and then..

work loads seems never ends..

i am totally jealeous with people who are sleeping soundly at the moment...

enjoy your sleep...sleep tight

sweet dreams...

zzzzzzzzzzzzz...

CINTA SEPI by SEARCH

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Cinta Sepi

Kau nyalakan pelita hati
Tapi sayang di tengah hari
Aku sendiri bukan tak peduli
Betapa halusnya cinta
Hingga kita bisa tersinggung
Walau dengan setitis dusta

Terbakar hari panas mentari
Panas lagi cinta ini
Haruskah kita terus begini
Dalam mencari erti cinta
Hingga kita bisa tersinggung
Walau dnegan setitis dusta

Diam bukan bererti
Aku tidak mengerti
Dan bukan cumbu rayu
Yang mebuat kita rindu
Lumrahnya cinta

Sedang kita alami cinta sepi
Dekat ku rasa jauh pun ku rasa
Sekuat mana getaran cinta kita

hero or villain or just an observer

in the movies..hero is sure to win...either they win from starting of the movie or winning at the last minute of the movie..

sometime..hero died at the end of the movie..(like in the old movies)

and the villain..win first then lose later..

it is all about the movies..
the life of main character in the movies..where hero win..
at all cost

so lets move on to the real life...
as some said ..life is like a big stage...

and if we are on the stage..we play our role..
as for me i play the role of myself
what is my role??
is my role is a hero? villain??
or just an extra on stage..???

but in real life...a nice guy always end up nothing...
the real villain always end up with everything..

if i choose to be a nice guy...will i win something??
if i choose to be the villain that want everything, will i get what i wish for??

but...lately i had this lousy feeling..
the feeling of losing..
losing my mind
losing someone...
losing my temper
losing my quality in my sleep
losing my time...

i don't want to be in the losing team..
i want and wish to be the nice guy that had someone..that win something
but if i be the guy that win everything...
could that make me the villain??

hero or villain or just being an observer???
or just be me..the boring little guy that is losing..

habbit of me...

this me..again...whining like baby...
my life is totally boring,
surely no sparks and nothing else..

people said that pain from a broken heart is last forever...
but a broken foot is hell of a pain..
and i've been there..
on both situation..
my ankle still not heal..already 3 months
every time it is raining, my ankle given me the pain..

and now reffering back to "broken heart last forever"
it is not that really pain..compare to physically injury...
so i disagree about PAIN FROM A BROKEN HEART IS LAST FOREVER..
it is not pain that last forever..it is the memory, the bitter and the person that hold a men from caring on with daily routine..
distract them and drowning them into the blues..

guess this habbit of walking with both pain
causing me run out sparks ( or i really don't have it)
and bring the boring out of me...
PERHAPS..

well..one can't stop rain falling from sky..
i didn't wish to have all this..
all this whining will continue..

p/s even babies stop crying,whenever the stomach is full..
hehehe

THE REASON

HOOBASTANK LYRICS

"The Reason"

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

DAWN OF NEW DAY

old skool computer

SEA VIEW...

PADDY FIELD

GOD GIFTED VIEW

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

runway train never come back

life is like a railway....once the day past...you never ever can return back...
like a RUNWAY TRAIN never come back...sigh!!!

a few months before my cat get pregnant..

having sex on the back of the truck..get a room please!!!

my cat...feed her and bite me...

nice to her,feed her and she bite me..then she ran away...hahahaha

my boring workstation a.k.a my desk

wall of fame or hall of fame?

stranger by the day- SHADES APART

SHADES APART-
STRANGER BY THE DAY

Snow is falling from the sky - in the middle of July
Sun was shining in my eyes again last night
Alarm goes off without a sound - the silence is so loud
Something isn't right

Footsteps echo down the hall - no one's there at all
Dial your number but your voice says "I'm not home"
Everything is inside out - I don't know what it's about

It keeps getting stranger by the day
Stranger by the day
It keeps getting stranger by the day
Stranger by the day
Going for a walk outside - to see what I can find
No reflections in the windows I pass by
It feels hotter in the shade - water runs up from the drain
Something's going on

Conversations with a mime - stared at by the blind
Imagination must be working overtime
The world is upside down - everything is turned around

It keeps getting stranger by the day
Stranger by the day
It keeps getting stranger by the day
Stranger by the day, yeah

By the time I reach your door - I can't take anymore
I just happened to be in your neighborhood
I'm the one who gets surprised - I don't believe my eyes
Your alibi's no good

Whatever happened to the world
Whatever happened to the girl I thought I knew
It just can't be true - I guess I'm losing you

Stranger by the day
Stranger by the day
It keeps getting stranger by the day
Stranger by the day

Oohhh...stranger by the day...

FOR THE HEART I ONCE HAD-nightwish

Heaven today is but a way
To a place I once called home.
Heart of a child, one final sigh
As another love goes cold.

Once my heart beats to the rhythm of the falling snow
blackened below.
The river now flows - a stream on molten virgin snow.

[Chorus:]
For the heart I’ll never have,
For the child forever gone
The music flows because it longs
For the heart I once had.

Living today without a way
To understand the weight of the world.
Faded and torn, old and forlorn
My weak and hoping heart.

For the child, for the night
For the heart I once had
I believe and foresee
Everything I could ever be.

[Chorus]

Time will not heal a dead boy’s scars,
Time will kill.

[Chorus]

j.co donut..yummy

i will remember this date 5-12-07.. the day i dislocated my ankle... arhhhh!!! it was pain like hell!!! as for today.. i still can't be competative play futsal, football.. not just that i had to forget football..i also can't jump, run, cross legged..ouchhh!!! i still waiting patiently for my right ankle to heal..so that i can enjoy my game... futsal, football and bowling...!!!