same old me bring the boring out of me....: 03/01/2008

i can't sleep.. although i am bloody tired

i want to sleep..i am very tired....but inside my head there is like a new year party, with fireworks exploding for non stop.....

i tried to close my eyes..but it won't work..trying to count till 100,but i failed to count coz .. i lost count...

my brain just can't stop working...couldn't chill out, could not take it lightly

too much worying i guess...

thinking of now and then..

work loads seems never ends..

i am totally jealeous with people who are sleeping soundly at the moment...

enjoy your sleep...sleep tight

sweet dreams...

zzzzzzzzzzzzz...

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Cinta Sepi

Kau nyalakan pelita hati
Tapi sayang di tengah hari
Aku sendiri bukan tak peduli
Betapa halusnya cinta
Hingga kita bisa tersinggung
Walau dengan setitis dusta

Terbakar hari panas mentari
Panas lagi cinta ini
Haruskah kita terus begini
Dalam mencari erti cinta
Hingga kita bisa tersinggung
Walau dnegan setitis dusta

Diam bukan bererti
Aku tidak mengerti
Dan bukan cumbu rayu
Yang mebuat kita rindu
Lumrahnya cinta

Sedang kita alami cinta sepi
Dekat ku rasa jauh pun ku rasa
Sekuat mana getaran cinta kita

hero or villain or just an observer

in the movies..hero is sure to win...either they win from starting of the movie or winning at the last minute of the movie..

sometime..hero died at the end of the movie..(like in the old movies)

and the villain..win first then lose later..

it is all about the movies..
the life of main character in the movies..where hero win..
at all cost

so lets move on to the real life...
as some said ..life is like a big stage...

and if we are on the stage..we play our role..
as for me i play the role of myself
what is my role??
is my role is a hero? villain??
or just an extra on stage..???

but in real life...a nice guy always end up nothing...
the real villain always end up with everything..

if i choose to be a nice guy...will i win something??
if i choose to be the villain that want everything, will i get what i wish for??

but...lately i had this lousy feeling..
the feeling of losing..
losing my mind
losing someone...
losing my temper
losing my quality in my sleep
losing my time...

i don't want to be in the losing team..
i want and wish to be the nice guy that had someone..that win something
but if i be the guy that win everything...
could that make me the villain??

hero or villain or just being an observer???
or just be me..the boring little guy that is losing..

habbit of me...

this me..again...whining like baby...
my life is totally boring,
surely no sparks and nothing else..

people said that pain from a broken heart is last forever...
but a broken foot is hell of a pain..
and i've been there..
on both situation..
my ankle still not heal..already 3 months
every time it is raining, my ankle given me the pain..

and now reffering back to "broken heart last forever"
it is not that really pain..compare to physically injury...
so i disagree about PAIN FROM A BROKEN HEART IS LAST FOREVER..
it is not pain that last forever..it is the memory, the bitter and the person that hold a men from caring on with daily routine..
distract them and drowning them into the blues..

guess this habbit of walking with both pain
causing me run out sparks ( or i really don't have it)
and bring the boring out of me...
PERHAPS..

well..one can't stop rain falling from sky..
i didn't wish to have all this..
all this whining will continue..

p/s even babies stop crying,whenever the stomach is full..
hehehe

THE REASON

HOOBASTANK LYRICS

"The Reason"

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you